Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
— Isaiah 41:10

I am definitely the social introvert in this blogging duo.  I love people and conversations, but I also love my quiet times of retreat.  That is where I recharge and thrive, and regain my sanity.  Without coffee and quiet time – well, let’s just say it's not pretty (just ask my family)!  But as Courtney says, no matter where you find yourself on the social interaction scale, you are likely to find one of us awake and ready to converse.  We are so glad you are here with us. 

The things I love most are Jesus, people, coffee, and leggings.  They all bring me comfort and joy.  I believe that humor is the greatest love language and welcome anyone who can make me laugh. I dream of traveling the world but for now I am an avid “glamper” seeking adventures close to home (just call us the Griswolds).  I spend most of my time “glamping,” bracing myself for the next thing crazy that our son says or does (or in some cases, ER visit), volunteering at school, and working on new projects.  I am a book hoarder and an Instagram post-a-holic.   I love the Lord, studying His word, and leading others.   

I’m an avid advocate for the world’s most vulnerable and for those who find themselves facing the battle of their lives. I’ve been through the trenches of infertility, my dad’s close call with a heart attack, and most recently my mom’s battle (and survival) of breast cancer.  I’ve learned that life is never what I expect and isn’t fair, but God always makes beauty out of the ashes.

I met my husband, Asia, in 1999 while both of us were attending Auburn University for Chemical Engineering.  We began dating after he unsuccessfully tried to set me up on a blind date with his best friend and later got married in 2001.  We began our careers working in the nuclear power industry, built our first home, created life long friendships, and traveled as often as we could.  Our life was not only going just as we had planned, but even better.

Just a few short years into our marriage we were thrown our first curveball when Asia was diagnosed with Polycystic Kidney Disease (PKD), a life threatening kidney disease.  After learning what that meant for us and our future, we began to set out on our plan to have children.  What we failed to realize at the time was just how naïve we were. We had a five year plan that we were trying to engineer – we were engineering our lives the way we were trained to engineer in our careers.  We had no idea what we would encounter along the way; the number of procedures we would have to endure, or the number of negative pregnancy tests thrown away.  After a couple years of emotional ups and downs, we were faced with the harsh reality that we would be unable to have biological children, and no amount of surgeries or procedures could help us with any certainty. Dual infertility was our fate. It was a grief that was almost unbearable to me.  I would never know what it was like to carry a child inside of me, feel them move and kick, or even have the dreaded labor pains.  It was all taken away from me in a matter of words.

But God had such greater plans for our lives and for the life of one little baby boy.  In October 2010, Asia and I made the decision to pursue adoption.  And in December of 2010, while we met with our first attorney, our son was being conceived in the belly of another young woman.  There are no coincidences.  God took the brokenness of an unexpected pregnancy of one 17 year old young woman and our infertility, and He joined them to create the most beautiful family nine short months later.

To read more about our journey through infertility and God’s full details of our adoption story, click on the button below.

Our plans to create a family didn’t go exactly as we had planned, but they did go exactly how God knew they would.  The brokenness and heart ache were not from Him, but the beauty that came after was.  There is nothing that we would change about our journey and our struggles.  Sure they are heart wrenching and painful, but they made us and our faith in God stronger.  I wouldn't trade that short nine months for a lifetime of blessings that our son now brings us any day of the week. 

I've now traded in that engineering job to become a stay-at-home mom and wife.  I love supporting my boys and pouring into their lives.  It is something I thought I would never do, but that’s "Our Not So Engineered Life."  And God is using it all for His glory as we walk alongside others who are now traveling difficult paths in life.

If you are facing one of many difficult journeys that life brings, I would love to pray with you and encourage you.  You may be facing infertility or have adoption related questions, or you may be struggling through a difficult diagnosis for yourself or a loved one.  No matter where you are, know that you are not alone.  I am not an expert but I would love to walk with you and can offer a hand to hold.  Please feel free to contact me or visit our prayer page to let us know how we can pray for you.

Love and Hugs,