I am so excited to share a beautiful story of discovering how God provides for us when we intentionally choose to put Him first. Sometimes that provision comes through answered prayers and the dream we've been searching for, sometimes it comes through realizing our dream needs to change, but when we put Him above all other things in this life, the provision is always there. This story comes to you today from a lifelong friend of mine, Alison. She has such a beautiful heart, a passion for Christ and loves her family immensely. She is also blessed with one of the most beautiful voices I've ever heard. She and her husband regularly blog about their lives over at Alabama Camel Riders. Please join me in welcoming Alison to ONSEL.
These past few months, God has led me on a journey of discovering the idols in my life - the things that I've been holding as more dear to me than Him. He led me to the realization that I was holding "getting or being pregnant" as an idol in my life. All my thoughts were on pregnancy and it seemed that everyone around me was getting pregnant, but not me. Anytime even the slightest thing was off physically or emotionally, my immediate thought was "maybe I'm pregnant!" The Lord showed me that these thoughts are not pleasing to Him. There's nothing wrong with desiring to be pregnant, but because I was consumed with it, it was wrong. It was idol for me. It was sin.
It's comforting to know that He didn't make a mistake when He made me. He's not surprised that I've had these struggles all my life. He's got every single one of my days - pregnant or not - written already. So I started asking myself if I would still praise and worship Him if I NEVER GOT PREGNANT AGAIN. This was a very difficult question for me to face. I knew that I had the desire to grow our family, but what if that meant that it wouldn't be through natural pregnancy? Would it mean adoption? Would I really, seriously be okay with it? I was facing this issue for the first time - for real. I was grieving. I was handling it, facing it, for the first time ever.
Hop on over to Alison's blog to read the rest of her beautiful story, With man it is impossible, but not with God!
A series for people who are grateful for infertility? Sounds crazy right! But it's not... what was once a phase of life marked by heartache and longing, has now become the scars that make us beautiful. Some of you reading this are right in the middle of your wait, are facing an unclear future or have been scarred by infertility. You may be struggling with how you could possibly be grateful for infertility. It took us a long time to get there ourselves. This is one of those areas where sometimes our faith has to guide us while our hearts and heads catch up. We have to practice thankfulness, even when it makes little sense, while God does His divine work on our souls.