Mountain Moving: Channeling My Inner (and Non-Existent) Type-B Personality {{ With a Giveaway }}

It's late at night and yet again, I'm the only one up. My husband and daughter are peacefully asleep, dreaming dreams of unicorns and rainbows and basketball championship games. I'll let you guess who's dreaming what. I'm awake... wishing I had an off button for my mind. It's the trifecta of the Type A, Perfectionist, Planner personality that keeps me up. There's a mountain that lies before us and before I can attempt to go to sleep, I have to think through every possible scenario and plan every detail. Earlier in the evening, my husband lovingly reminded me "don't get ahead of ourselves... there are a lot of things that still have to be decided before we know what we need to do." I smiled and laughed. I know this and I lovingly reminded him that this is how my brain has to work. It's how I prepare for whatever may lie ahead. If I've thought through every angle and every possibility, then I can be prepared for whatever feeling comes with the final decision. Excitement, sadness, relief, hope... I'll be prepared. He smiled, knowing me better than I know myself. He knows I have to stew over this one. Then I'll be ready to take the next step, whatever it is.

I tell myself I'm not a worrier. But I think I have stealthily cloaked my worry in a disguise of over-preparedness. It's a fine line. But when I am the only one up at night, losing sleep over making decisions of our future, I begin to see my preparedness for what it really is... worry.

Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank Him for all He has done. Then you will experience God’s peace which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.
— Philippians 4:6-7

I pray about a lot of things. I pray over just about every decision we make, individually and as a family. But when the big decisions come I get in my own way and more disturbingly in God's way. I see God making paths for us, guiding us towards His plan for our lives. I trust that He knows what's best for us. But my goodness, I am not a patient person. I really struggle with the waiting part! You would think that the years of waiting through infertility and seeing God's miracle and perfect timing at the end would have cured me of this, but alas... I am apparently quite a stubborn person and hold on tight to my flaws. {Hmmm... I wonder where my daughter gets her stubborn streak from.} Patience and waiting when I'm ready for action is something I am just not good at. A relaxing day at home rarely means sleeping late, reading books and just vegging out in front of the TV. A relaxing day in our house is usually cleaning the house from top to bottom, doing yardwork, showering up in time to host a dinner party. It is possible that we are really, really not good at sitting still and waiting. Though usually we love being active and living life intensely, that trait can turn into a struggle when God tries to tell me, "Be still child, I've got to do a couple things first to make your path will be straight." The struggle is easier now as we have seen God redirect our lives before. Through first-hand experiences with Him, we have an intimate trust more so now than ever before. But it still takes my husband and I reminding each other to be patient. Don't get ahead of God. We have prayed through this. We are seeing His presence in our lives and seeing Him lay out a path before us. Just. Be. Patient. and let things unfold as they are designed.

[Jesus said] for truly I say to you, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible to you.” But this kind [of faith] does not go out except by prayer and fasting.
— Matthew 17:20-21

A mustard seed!!! Do you know how small that is? Here, let me remind you...

Seriously, that's tiny. I feel like I have that kind of faith. But I need to learn how to channel my inner Type B personality (of which I have exactly 1%) and just let God do things His way, in His time. I pray for God to move a mountain, I believe that He will, but when it doesn't happen IMMEDIATELY I pretty much tell Him, "move over, I've got this." And then this incredibly productive scenario begins...

Yeah, that guy isn't going anywhere fast. And when I essentially tell God He isn't moving the mountain fast enough and I try to do everything myself, that's exactly what I look like too. A whole lot of huffing and puffing, straining and stressing and nothing productive happens.

Here's the thing about mountains though. Sometimes you may ask God to move a mountain, trusting full well that He will. And He does. He opens doors, directs paths, makes our future steps clear. But we may have to climb a smaller mountain before we can see the mountain He moved. Sometimes when we trudge up the hard to climb terrain and we make it to the top, we're worn out and completely blessed with a view we would have completely missed without that vantage point. We may just find that we are surprised with the amount of fun we might have at the very tip top of the challenging thing that was previously blocking our path. Sometimes it's not until we reach the top of a small mountain that we see just how big the next mountain is that we no longer have to climb. Only God knows which mountains in our lives need to be moved and which need to be climbed. We have to pray and trust that He is going to do the heavy lifting and not lead us up the wrong path. When we can trust that, we can avoid piling on a lot of unnecessary stress, pushing on a mountain for absolutely no reason, when God is telling us to just settle the heck down and relax, maybe even have some fun, while He does the hard work.

No matter what the outcome is, we have to remember that if we pray with the faith of a mustard seed, God will act. We have to be patient, we have to trust, we have to let Him move the mountains in our lives that need moving.

The waiting can seem like it will never end. But I assure you, {and I'm talking to myself here} it will. What's around the next hill will be worth the wait. Mountains don't move overnight. They take time. The scenery changes, other landscape is impacted, perspectives have to change. But, with a God that created the mountains in the first place watching over our every step, a mountain is no big deal. So join me in learning how to sit down and relax at the base of the mountain and watch the show as it unfolds before us.

And as an update to this... because my stubborn streak is rather impressive, God tends to make Himself super obvious when He's trying to get a message through to me. Last night I stayed up late writing this and trying to tame my thoughts in prayer. This morning, I opened up Instagram and these were the first things on my timeline. All back to back. All the same message. Just be patient, my child, I've got this. Thank you God!

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