To Know & To Be Known

I knew when I accepted the 31 Day Challenge to write every day that it was going to be difficult to do. I wanted to do this to challenge myself to grow in this area and to focus more on our blog.  But I find myself getting stressed about balancing how to write every day with all the other daily responsibilities and areas God is asking me to serve, and at the same time being true to the promise that Jenny and I made when we started writing.  Neither of us want to write, just to write.  We want the words we publish here to be from depths of our soul, to reach someone and be encouraging, and most importantly to be inspired by the Holy Spirit.  There is an inherent conflict that will arise when you make that promise to each other and God and then agree to a 31 day challenge of prompt words. 

So as I wrestle between my mind that wants to write and my soul that says be patient and write when I tell you to, the prompt word "know" comes up.  (Yes, I am days late writing on it.) On the day I was to write about "know" I found myself up against an impressive writer's block, and then I am given a perfect birthday gift from a friend.  I get this beautiful note pad with a ribbon and verse tied around it. It says "be still and know that I am God (Psalm 46:10)."  As I continue to wrestle with my "goal" to write every day, my eyes keep settling back on this little perfect gift, and I find peace.  I find the reminder that no one cares if you write every single day for a month; lives aren't changed by completing a list of prompt words; I don't earn any more or less favor with God by successfully completing this challenge.  I do, however, rob myself of the joy of knowing that the words I pen are from the Spirit and therefore have purpose.  So for today, my prompt word "know" is just that...  be still and get to know God a little better today.  And in knowing Him better, you will discover a bit more about yourself and what He wants you spending your precious limited time on today.  He knows me so much better than I know myself.  He knows me well enough to know that I need a sweetly inspired gift to be delivered to me at the perfect time so I will stop competing with myself with what He's calling me to do and just rest in and follow Him.  It's so overwhelmingly wonderful to be known...