Open adoption can bring with it a roller coaster of emotions and will take our hearts places we never imagined. But I can honestly say "IT.IS.WORTH.IT." I am constantly learning more about myself and more about how to truly love with the love of Christ. I'm also learning that I not only want to make our son proud that I am his mommy, but that I want his birth mom to be proud as well. It's not about me or self gratification, but knowing that she is happy watching her son grow and flourish in the environment that she wanted for his life.
Every time we part ways after our visits tears stream down my face. I try to fight them back, but my emotions overcome me. I feel as though I am leaving a part of my heart as I watch her walk away. I think to myself, I hope and pray that I make her just as proud of being his mommy as I am of her for being his birth mom."